Prepper's Blind Alley

Hello, have you been considering what it will be like once things go
downhill, and you are spending more time in your home alone? Hey, is it like
the movie “Home Alone” or will you have enough to occupy your mind? Will you
deal with being alone all the time and take pleasure in it? Those are part
of preparation too as well as physical preps we all are familiar with. As
for me, since many people ignore me anyway, I am again becoming used to
being alone all the time. There are only two people I see once a week, and
when I leave this place there will be even fewer probably. I am on the
computer a lot, typing e-mail, but even this probably won’t be happening as
I have no income to pay for it basically. In a space of about three to six
months I am sure once funds are gone, then I also will have nothing to pay
utilities. I am not sure what I will do, but the prospect of being alone
used to loom large with me because I had my Mom for so long. But I look back
to a time when I had apartments and I was alone all the time then too. It
isn’t that I’m not social, haven’t tried with sighted people, on the
contrary. Many blind folks stick to other blind people and don’t bother with
the sighted for social activities. I belonged to clubs, and took classes at
adult education groups for ages, and found no good friends. I went sailing
at a club on the Charles River, and hoped people would adjust to my being
there, but nope that just never happened. It is one thing for a blind person
to try, and it is another whether sighted people get by their morbid
curiosity to think of you as a real friend. That is the way it is.
Therefore, I am used to being alone again, after my mother went into the
nursing home I mourned, and I was lonely. Now I am used to it again and it
has taken that two years to adjust. I am searching for land to put a cabin
or trailer on, and when I find it, it will be time for me to go. I am
constantly looking, and this will mean more isolation for me…but it is
okay. I have a plan. I stick to routines in the morning, feed my animals and
me, and do things around the house…then if I move will start my gardens
again too, and that takes time and effort as we all know. After that since I
am always getting older I won’t have to worry if I have too much energy to
expend. I have always listened to radio while I work, and will continue as
long as it can be heard. I have some books I can read if bored, and that is
enough I guess. There are always chores to be done to keep me busy. It would
be good if you had a plan things to keep you busy as the time may come when
you too will be alone. Sighted people don’t have to worry about being alone
as much as the disabled who are ignored, but in this case as society breaks
down, guess what? I think we now will have the advantage, and not lose our
minds over it. Sighted people are so used to being out and around others. I
tried for twenty years to fit in, and I am about done with that. I send mail
out to other blind people and I write here. But when I find land, I will not
be able to afford the mail access on the computer, and I won’t be going to
the library to get it or anywhere else for that matter often. I have
appreciated the fact that I was allowed to have this blog, and the great
effort put into that. I am letting you know that, and I am looking forward
to a time when my own name is on a piece of land will give me
satisfaction…In the meantime, think about what your plan will be when you
can’t socialize as much as you do now, if we have a war, or breakdown of our
country and you are out there in your retreat by yourself. Hey, keep a pack
of cards around or things to do to occupy your time. Solitaire is an option
when bored. Alleycat and furry friends.